Meaning in life
I'm thinking about doing some volunteer work for a worthy charity. Most high in my list are NGOs that do environtmental work and orphanages or homes for the elderly. I'm also seriously considering using my unique position to organize a fund raising event for a suitable charity.
Only a day ago I was feeling so miserable about my personal problems, but watching the news has again made me aware that my suffering is nothing compared to what some of my countrymen are going through. In the news earlier, they showed how bad the situation is in Infanta, Quezon: Homes destroyed, mud everywhere, dead livestock and unhygeinic surroundings that could possibly lead to an epidemic of one sort or another. Add to that: Inaccessible roads, and a provincial calamity fund that has still to be released.
I wanna help out. I kinda feel a sense of duty to these people, and I know that by helping them I'll be helping myself too. As De Mello so paradoxically puts it, "Helping others is the most selfish thing a person can do." He claims that when we care about others and help out, we're actually, selfishly making ourselves feel better. I agree with him.
To ponder: Selflessness = Selfishness. I believe that that is one form of selfishness that would surely be welcome during these trying times.
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A good number of my friends have recently commented that I look good. I find this surprising since I'm in that rutty stage right now when I feel and think that I'm unattractive. I'd be thinking, "What the hell is he/she talking about?" Some of these people don't know the personal crisis that I'm going through. Heck, some of them don't even know that I was hitched for four years!
I've always believed that what we feel inside of us somehow finds a way of expressing itself physically. Ever noticed someone so crazily in love that all the beautiful feelings that are welling up in that person's heart begins to show in his/her countenance? Well, I have a feeling that the great sorrow that I'm feeling is somehow projecting itself outward and that some of my friends find the expression of my woe as being attractive. Just a theory. I am, after all allowed to ramble in my own blog, aren't I? tee hee ^_<
To do:
1) Apply for DSL connection. Cool, no? =]
2) Plan room renovation. Coax designer friend, T to do a free consultation.
3) Continue with physical improvements.
4) Sleep more (-_-);
5) Shop for upcoming christmas parties! \(^o^)v
Reflections before retiring to bed: I am in an emotional seesaw. Crap. I really should move on uhuh. I should. I think I will wait some more before I start dating again. Have been a bit h*rny recently tee hee, but I can still get by without sex. Sex and dating can wait (a bit longer =P).
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